WOW!

So.......to say I'm slacking at writing you is quite the understatement.......talk about a crazy couple of weeks!!!??!! Where has the time gone? I feel like we were just enjoying summer and before we know it, its going to be Halloween! The older I get the quicker time flies. Anyways, thank you for your sweet words of encouragement the past few weeks. I love the fact that you don't tell me what I want to hear and you won't let me settle for something just because it is comfortable. You are always ever so gently nudging me towards being a better person each and every day. And, you know me all too well! I believe your words to me the other day were, "The only reason you aren't doing "this" (this=new changes and challenges in the upcoming weeks that I am procrastinating on) is because you are scared. It has nothing to do with capability, or not wanting to, its just that you are letting fear overtake you and drive your decisions." HA! Talk about calling it like you see it! I needed that, I needed to hear it and not just think it, I needed it to be confronted and not just floating in my heart and mind. Thank you my darling, that is one of the many reasons why I am so madly in love with you.

On a lighter note....I found this website where you make all kinds of lists. It is like your life in lists. Oh how it is so straight up my alley....I LOVELOVELOVE it!!!! They make journals that prompt you to make certain lists about yourself; life, career, friends, and a bunch of other things. I take the ones that I like and leave the ones that don't really apply to me. I thought it would be fun to do a few on here....it really makes you think and its super fun (atleast I think so ;)

Listography.com

I figured we could start out simple and then move into the more complex subjects....if a list could ever be complex?

Here it goes...

About me:

Favorite Smells...

fresh cut grass, the beach, strawberry fields (only PC ones), cookies baking in the oven, my Mom's old perfume she used to wear "Lefleur", My Dad's old t-shirts from his armoire that I slept in as a kid, Katherine Clark's (former s.queen, I think she is 90yo and still active...love her) perfume "Rose Water" from CrabTree and Evelyn, The cologne you wore when we first met....it takes me back every time, Cupcake candle from Yankee Candles

Favorite Sights....

Your eyes and your smile (ok....a little cheesy maybe...but oh so true), morning sunlight, everything about NYC, people laughing, sunflower fields, fall leaves, the donut case at Hole In 1 (oh yeah!), a body of believers worshiping together, shelves of books, over-stuffed couches, make-up pallettes, Deb's photos, Carry and David's gowns, racks of vintage clothes, family being together, young people who rock their own style, Molly's sweet little face, your excitement when the Noles win (I know...its going to be a long season), the way your face lights up when you talk about your students and all they are achieving, Strawbery Festival ;), Ms. Ruth Harsham's blog (lovelovelove it), T-Bone's "I'm mad at you" walk, our wedding photos

Favorite Sounds....

Your "Do you love me" voice, my Dad's singing, laughter of all kind, hearing people speak in different languages, country music, the steel guitar, Bob Anderson's sermons, ocean waves, Brooklyn Tabernacle Choir, Molly's jibberjabber, T-Bone's talking bark, hair dryer, Kenny G, the wind, Your British accent, the buzz of New York City, the crack of a baseball bat, and every once in a while the sound of silence

Your turn buns.....

KB

Open Doors

Hey hunny buns,

Man, I am spent- and its only the second day of school. I have a completely new view of teachers in k thru 12. I love this job teaching high schoolers though. Every day brings a new challenge! I know for a fact that God has me teaching there for a reason. I truly think that God is going to work thru me to lead lost souls to His Kingdom or to minister to souls that are filled with grief and pain. I am just praying throughout each day that a door will just swing open and present an opportunity to share Christ.

Today our Bellwork (I call them New Editions: Let me explain real quick. Every day students are required to do bellwork, let's be honest no one likes that. So, I wrap the first couple of lines of ICE ICE BABY "Stop Collaborate and Listen, Mr. B. is back with a brand NEW EDITION- then I rip a poster board off the wall and reveal the assignment) was to prepare questions for me as I enter the hot seat. Ask anything, and I would try to answer it the best I knew how. The funniest thing I noticed was that everything led back to God and to you- my wife! Some kid asked, "where is your happy place?" LOL. I said- to know that my wife is pumped about me and knowing that I love her as much as she loves me- and to be in the presence of my King! There is just No better state than that. How much better can life get as I just focus on those two realities?

I had probably 100 questions thrown on me today and finally I was able to reverse the assignment and I began asking them about Life, Hurts, Worries, God, Heaven, Dreams, Goals, etc. I realized, man, teenagers are smart. They are like big sponges and they soak up all of this knowledge. Kids tried to define the afterlife, tried to reason hell, they aspire towards plans more than just a friday night. It was unreal. I am pumped to be teaching such an incredible group of students.

There are so many students who are searching, or who have searched and have been burned, or who haven't searched and have seen nothing but ugliness and pain their entire lives. I am just praying for openness- A divine transparency in the hearts of these students that will allow God to use me simply as a vessel to tell them about God's love and promises.

Hun, I am so thankful to have a wife that knows to pray for me without me even having to ask. You are my treasure B. I love that you know me so well. Oh yeah, and the students are raving about your Strawberry Pizza and everyone has already put in a formal request for a "Strawberry Pizza" Day. Ha.

Time to eat- Love ya darling.

DB

First Day of School

Hey B!

Tomorrow is a big day for you and I know you have so many emotions and thoughts swirling in that brilliant heart and mind of yours. I just want you to know that each student you come in contact with today is in your class for a reason. Its not by chance, nor is it a coincidence. I know that every hand you shake this morning will look back at your sweet face and see God's love and light. Remember, you are here and you are called for such a time as this. I can't wait to see all that God is going to do through you. He is awesome and mighty, and worthy of all the praise.

I feel like its the first day for me too....can't wait to hear all about it!

Love you and praying for you.

KB

"And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not loose heart. " Galatians 6:9

P.S.

Don't forget to Lysol your kids down before they come in your room ;) Just Kidding...but no seriously, I bought you that gallon jug of hand sanitizer for a reason :) Denise won't let us near her and those sweet growing little peanut twins ;) if we even show the slightest sign of a sniffle!

I haven't posted in quite a few days hun. It's been a crazy week.

New year started at my job. I am full time at a charter high school teaching social sciences, right up my alley, especially the debate class and the leadership class. I am so pumped about what God is going to do and to see the many doors that will open to the students I will come in contact with. On top of that, I am just waiting on my boss to announce his candidacy for the 2010 election, where I will run my first campaign...I am stoked!

My birthday just passed and whenever birthdays pass, for me atleast, I like to examine my life (you know the drill- see how your accomplishment timeline looks, yadayada). I can't say that I've done much. Yeah, I have been in leadership positions numerous times, I earned a degree, and I can make up a few other things that I have "Done". It's been incredible being in the Word each day, learning and relearning Psalm 119. It has reinforced that this life is not about me! Not by any means. Each step I take, every breath, is a gift from above. My accomplishments pale in comparison to His Statutes. My dreams don't hold water when it comes to His majestic plans. My hurts, hangups, worries and fears don't stand a chance to His Resurrection. Man, how good is God.

As I was in my quiet time in Nan Psalm 119 I read: I have taken an oath and confirmed it, that I will follow your righteous laws.

You know something straight up crazy. Some people are just absolutely terrible at keeping secrets. It doesn't matter how much emphasis you put on the sentence "Don't tell anyone this" sooner or later what you told in confidence gets out. I've known quite a few people like that- not cool. But I'm not focused on those people. What's crazy are those people who hear a really juicy secret and can hold it in til their last day on earth. Wild. Yet, those same people continually break their commitments with God- a commitment it says in Ecclesiastes that you shouldn't just make to make. That's considered folly. A commitment to God, saying Yes to God is the biggest decision anyone can make, it's a matter of life and death, and ought not be taken lightly- yet how many times do I break His Commands and spit on the cross that I 'have committed' myself to serving. It's so much bigger than just keeping a secret! Its an oath with an Almighty God. The God! The Alpha and the Omega! Just typing those words pump me up!

This passage reinforces my passion and commitment to only serve God and to stay true to the oath I have made. Good stuff. God, be a lamp to our feet and guide every step we take, whether it's with our careers, our marriage, or our futures- allow us to fully trust in YOU.

Pray for me as I continue training for the upcoming school year and the nearing campaign- soon work weeks of 50 plus hours will be the norm! Yikes. And babe, you have been working so hard lately- you are Awesome. You rock my socks off. You are my B!

love you bunny!

D

Kaf......

The literal meaning of the letter Kaf is "palm." I love this....the palm is the place in the body where potential is actualized. Think of all the work you do with your hands each day. From the moment you wake up, to second you drift off to sleep, our hands are constantly in motion or they are idle. Momma always said, "Idle hands are the devil's handy work." It is so true...and FYI...that's a country song, just in case you were wondering ;). Today I started to think about all that my hands do and don't do. The work that they set out to accomplish each day, is it work to better the Kingdom or is it just busy work? Do I wake up each morning focused on today's work? Or, do I wake up and miss out on today's work because I am too busy focusing on tomorrow's? For me its the latter. I often get too concerned with what God is going to do tomorrow or the next day or next year that I miss out on what He is doing today. There is definitely a balance of living for today and preparing for where God is sending us tomorrow, however, that balance is sometimes hard to find. Each day, my prayer is that I will seek to serve the least of these, to love the unlovely, to be obedient and faithful even when I am physically exhausted, to surrender these hands that I have to the Father to use as He may choose. Regardless of how our society measures success, we must hold onto and treasure the simple truth that we are here to be His hands and feet and His eyes that is true success.

On the other "hand" of Kaf........Kaf is the also the root of the word kipah. In English kipah translates into cap. Therefore, it is said "You have placed your Palm over me," meaning God's hand is over your head. I like to view His palm as an umbrella. When you are walking in the rain with an umbrella you are protected from the effects of weather around you. Now, using an umbrella implies an action, a choice, and choosing to follow God is the same. We must actively seek Him and the more we seek Him, the more we find Him....I love that. Picture it.....the maker of the Universe, the One who created the oceans and skies, the mountains and desserts, every creature and human being...He has His palm over your life. I love to visualize that....it takes me back to Sunday School as 5 year old and singing "He's Got the Whole World In His Hands", except this time, His hand is over you, like an umbrella, shielding, guiding, and protecting. What an amazing God we serve.

I am honored and humbled to be your wife.

K

P.S.

Apologies for the "ADD" nature of this blog....its the product of on overactive mind and a long day ;) Kisses.

Wineskin in the Smoke

Back in the day, people used animal skins as containers to hold liquids like wine. Another function would be to hang the skin on their tents. When the people made fires they needed a device to act like a sponge for the smoke. The skin acted as this neutralizer. Immediately after absorbing the smoke for a long period of time the skin shriveled up and turned black. It was then considered useless.

Psalm 119 Kaph. We continue on the journey. Sorry I haven't written on the other entries. My energy has been sapped the past couple of days. Sorry hun, if I haven't been much fun...I'll make it up to ya in about 5 minutes, lol.

Back to the psalmist: "Though I am like wineskin in the smoke, I do not forget your decrees."

This entry speaks to me about a guy who is just straight up down-trodden. He is asking God: "how long must I wait", "when will you comfort me". He is being persecuted, he is suffering and he is tired and he recognizes how 'they' almost won.

What is it in life that constantly brings us down? That for days, months, or years has had this grip around our necks, not allowing us to breathe, panting for God to help. And where is God? Do you feel like that sometimes. You pray and you feel like it bounces off the wall and no one is listening. Are there people in your life that constantly bring you down, force you to be mediocre, applaud when you settle, and delight when you sin? Are you about to lose the fight and just give in? I have known people like that way too often. You know the type, the people that just love it when you are down-and-out. Misery loves company. GET OUT!

Here is a guy in this Psalm who is where many of us are today in our spiritual walks. Struggling, trying to seek God amidst a pack of wolves waiting for you to falter so that they can pounce. Is your spiritual walk like that wineskin? Shriveled up. Blackened. Hardened. Useless. But, why not just accept it. God, Im worthless, useless, no good. Be done with me. NOT SO FAST. The psalmist says, you know what, even though I am used up- I will never forget you God. I am even that much more desperate for you to guide my every step!

Know that God RESTORES. David writes in his Psalms that, "God restores my soul". Allow Him to work in your life in a very special way this week, restoring a new vigor to worship Him, a new passion to overcome whatever it is holding you back, and a forgiveness to those who have hurt you. Any hang ups, hurts, worries- God can Restore! You gotta ask.

Praying for you this week hun. Be safe driving and enjoy your time working hard. Pray for me as school starts up in full gear just that I can stay diligent and healthy!

God thank you for everyday I have with my wife. Each day is a gift from You alone.

love,
daniel

Uncle D.D.

My dearest Uncle D.D.,

I know you absolutely adore the sound of that! Soon enough, you will find it charming and endearing, and 10 years from now it will have become part of your identity. If you are reading this blog and you are totally puzzled by "Uncle D.D." I am referring to Daniel, of course, and soon enough we will be able to share super exciting news with you. But for now, it must remain a mystery ;).

I had the most amazing day. I love days like this. When I know that everything I did today, large and small, was completely orchestrated by our Father. Everything just lined up perfectly, and He put people in my day that I needed to spend time with and fellowship with, and I so love that. As a woman, it is what I live for. I have a friend, who today also became my client, and let me say...she is absolutely fabulous. Not only beautiful on the outside, but has the matching interior, a true gift from above. She is so fun and interesting to talk to and from the moment she sat down in my chair I felt as though I could my true self and hold nothing back. It was like I had known her for years. Today she was such a blessing to me and I learned so much from her in the hour and a half that we spent together. I love-love-love how God does that! We had a chance to talk about how you and I met, and I delight in telling our love story. It is so unique, completely arranged by God, and the best yet....its short! Ha! I had to get that one in....sometimes we just have to laugh at ourselves. I began to tell about our first "outing" together and how that outing came about. I was so not looking for love. We both weren't. We were completely satisfied with being single for what we thought would be a very long time. I can still recall that first time I shook your hand in the Payne's kitchen. You were wearing jeans, a blue on aqua striped t-shirt, and of course, the white converse. I didn't feel a zing; I didn't see fireworks shooting out from behind your head, nor did I hear a deep voice call down from above. Instead, I felt this deep and calming peace that I had never before experienced, right in that split second of our hands first joining, it came over me like a wave and I was never the same. I've always been pretty conservative on first date conversations and our conversation that evening dove right into the heart of the matter. At dinner with the group, I tried to play it cool and act like I wasn't too interested, but the moment you picked the chair next to mine it took everything I had not to bust out in a happy cheer in front of the entire restaurant. The "Cool Act" didn't go so far and before I knew it we were talking about ministry, our victories and our mistakes, God's plan, where our lives were heading and all the in between. Our good-bye was pretty swift and nothing special, but I still had that feeling of complete and utter peace that I had never had before. On the ride home with Sophia, she looked at me as to question, "Exactly what happened tonight?", and before I could open my mouth we were both going 90-to-nothing. We both knew there was something different about you and something happened that night that you and I couldn't deny. Sometimes, I still can't believe I found you. It amazes me how God gives and takes away. You were and you are a gift. So the weeks went on (2 to be exact) and I found myself standing in my most favorite evening gown in front of an auditorium filled with people as a finalist for Miss Florida. In that very moment, every desire I had to conquer the crown completely escaped me. I didn't know exactly where and what God had in store for me but I knew whatever it was, it involved you and not a Miss Florida title. The adrenaline is crazy on stage, your most treasured thoughts fly out of your mouth when you step off the stage and begin to come down off of the rush and high from the experience. The first thing out of my mouth was "Thank you Lord! I can get married now!" I looked at my friend Erica and realized I had shocked us both. It tops my list for cool experiences....some may not think it was anything special, but for me it was raw, real, and completely filled with the Spirit. Most looked at us like we had 10 heads when we announced that we were getting married. However, even in those moments of people saying negative things and friends who didn't exactly act like friends, I still had the peace and calmness in my heart that I knew was from the Lord. I love the fact that we didn't view our love as a fairytale out of a book, something that we have watched in a movie and felt the need to emulate. We knew from the beginning, it was ordained by the Father, and as amazing as that was, our honesty about the realness and difficulties of marriage was ever present in our conversations and it was something we were so ready and eager to tackle together.

So, I know that's only part of our story. The point in reliving this with you was merely to say that God's ways are far better than our own. Following HIS path, HIS commandments, HIS ways lead me to you, and what a wonderful and amazing blessing you are. Each day it becomes clearer and clearer that God created us for each other. I love waking up everyday and having the honor and privilege to choose you all over again as my husband, my best friend, and my love.

Happy Friday!

K

I thought I would share this with you. I did it myself...and I am a little proud of myself for the mere fact that I've never taken a graphic design class, just a general ed computer course my freshman year. Well...one confession....I did have the help of a really cool program ;) Love you B.

K

Buns...I thought you would appreciate this. My beloved cousin Shane used to refer to me as KayKay....Sumo KayKay. Ha! I think this picture actually makes me look thin compared to others. My sister was leaving for California and we were seeing her off. Matt refused to wear clothes, unless they were camouflaged, and I believe this was Shannon before her many interesting, and some fabulous, hair styles. Let me just say, my sister is and always will be one of the most beautiful and intelligent women I have ever met, and she is an amazing mother....she was beautiful even when she had green-ish hair ;)

So, hope this makes you laugh....thankfully I have ankles now and a more defined neck ;)

KB

Different Faces for Different Places?

Today it is time for a spiritual reality check.
Dissect every aspect of my life and see where I'm at.
As we continue seeking God thru Psalm 119 we have come to Zayin. The verse I would like to hit on is verse 54:
Your decrees are the theme of my song wherever I lodge.
This psalmist reminds me of a traveler. And whether or not he is visiting his hometown, or Seattle, or New York or Kalamazoo, this traveler has a steadfast theme that he sings. The theme of his song, his life, doesn't change with the city. The people he comes in contact with in Seattle will get the exact same impression of this man as the people he comes in contact with in New York. Sounds simple enough?

But, like always, reading the Word seems to cut thru to the very heart of my issues in life: Am I the same man, consistently, in different areas of my life? For example, am I the same Daniel in front of the students that I teach, my wife, my friends, my family or even the people the I don't know and come in contact with. Do I lessen myself, do I change the theme of my song, so that I can hang with the guys for a night? Or do I claim to be a Christian and sold out for His cause, but couldn't care less about those people I come in contact with that I don't know? Are there inconsistencies in my life when I travel from one city to the next?

This traveler is amazing to me. He doesn't care where he is located, he is soooo in love with God that the theme of his song is undeniably consistent. This is man that consistently looks to God in every aspect of life. Dealing with a waiter, a bank teller, an angry student, an upset sibling, a parent, a pastor, a homeless person, a superstar...the traveling man allows God's decrees to inundate his most inner being- and what comes out? How does he deal? Something much easier said than done: he uses the same exact song. To me this is a traveler filled with the Spirit: he has love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control.

Do we practice these same characteristics everywhere we go? Sure, its super easy to do this at church or around our bible study group. But do we live in the Spirit everywhere else: While we are at home alone with free time, or a school, or in a conference (where you are getting reamed for a mistake by your boss), or while traveling away from everyone who knows you, or in college where you have all the freedom in the world and little responsibility, or when you are with your spouse or significant other?

Is there a boundary you put on God? "Yes God, you can come and control this area of my life and this one too, but God, I am not, under any circumstances, allowing you to take over this area of life!" Is that you? What is it that you can't seem to let go of? Is it a girlfriend that's bringing you down? A marriage that you don't have any more patience for? An anger or disdain you have towards a people group, a boss, a political figure? What is it?

I love walking thru Psalm 119 because it brings clarity to where I am struggling and shows me how to not only get out of the pits, but how to maintain a steadfast relationship with God, regardless of my surroundings! This traveler is a perfect example of how American so-called Christians get it wrong (including myself). We sing our songs on Sunday, hear a cool message, and close our eyes during prayer. When we get back home its back to a watered-down, comfortable, monotonous relationship (if we can call it that) with our Creator. The traveler represents what I want to be! A guy who doesn't change with the wind, who doesn't get tossed by the waves of an ocean, but who remains completely devoted to Christ and imitating His humility towards others!

God restore me daily and create in me a passion to carry Your Theme with me wherever I go, whomever I come an contact with and whatever I do!

Daniel

A Date with Mr. President

Your flight arrives early into Reagan National Airport. You are escorted by three burly men wearing ear pieces and sunglasses even though it is overcast outside (These are three guys you definitely don't want to mess with, you know the type...where in an instant they can break someone's neck with their pinky toe). So you simply follow without much question. You arrive to baggage claim and there are your hand-me-down pieces of luggage already to be wheeled off by, oh you cant believe it, your own driver. There he is, tuxedo, clean shaven, and ready to get your bags into his stretch limo. Are you dreaming or what? You leave the hustle and bustle of the airport without a bit of traffic. Thats odd?! You look back and see three unmarked cars trailing and two police motorcycles ahead of you- clearing all traffic for you. For me? Yeah, for you. Wow. The motorcade stops at this big house. Since its pretty dark outside and raining quite heavily you can't quite make it out. And then you see it, 1600 pennsylvania ave...

The President of the United States is waiting for you as you get to the door and he is excited to sit down and speak with you about the state of the nation. What? Me? Alright get it together, you'll be fine. And there you go, as you and the President sit in his den (oval office) you begin to let him know how you really feel. The President didn't expect it. You told him what's up. You stood up for what you believed in for once in your life and he sat. You told him how he is spending too much, not fighting to protect human life and how you think we need to cut ties with our dependence on foreign oil. Oh and stop increasing taxes. And there he sat. There was silence for a moment, a long moment. You didnt know what he was going to do. But for some reason peace and confidence was flooding thru every vein and pore of your body. You exuded a heart at ease. And not only did he heed your advice, but he said I like you kid, you got chops and instead of just trying to please me- you stood up for what you believed in. Thanks fo the talk. And that was it- you wake up from an awesome dream and back to your daily routine you go.

Psalm 119 Waw says, "I will speak of your statutes before kings and I will not be put to shame, for I delight in your commands because I love them."

Few of us will ever get to tell a President how we feel about policy or economics. But God is here wanting to give us an abundant confidence to go before people and proclaim His Name, His Statutes, and His love for each of us. And an awesome truth is that we will not be put to shame. God will give us confidence and give us victory, but we must be willing to SPEAK. Why speak? Because of the overwhelming delight we have in Him and the love we have for Him!

God allow us to boldly go and know that victory is in our reach because you have prepared the way.

Daniel

Protein for the Soul- Psalm 119 Daleth

So, lately, I have been on this workout regiment. I am trying to bulk up a little bit and stay fit for my Bride. I'm realizing that hittin' the gym 5 days a week is only part of the solution. Mainly, diet is the hardest thing to stay committed to. I'm no expert, but from what I have researched and actually applied to my life, digesting tons of protein is essential to getting fit. After every workout, I methodically drop a couple of scoops of protein into a glass of water so that my body can fully recover and soak up the nutrients from the day's gym visit. Why is it so important?

Protein is essential to perform simple bodily functions. It helps maintain and replace the tissues in your body. My muscles are made up of protein, so in order to get lean, hard muscle I have to replinish my body with tons of protein each day!

As I read the 4th installment last night of Psalm 119 I thought about Protein. This whole process of being in the word really does parallel to working out in the gym and maximizing results by digesting the healthy nutrients. At the gym I am training my body, going hard after each rep, sweating, and pumping all I can until I know I have given my muscles the attention they needed for that day. Breathing heavy, sweat dripping from head to toe, I know that there is just one thing left for me to do- Protein so that I can maintain, replace, and replinish.

In Psalm 119 Daleth it reminds me to hold fast to His statutes, run in the path of His commands, and be strenthened by His Word, even though my soul may be weary. Sometimes, when you are running strong for the cause of Christ something just brings you down like a swift smack in the head by a 2x4. Or, in Harry Potter's case a quick "Expelliarmus" can knock you down just as fast (quick shout out to you HP fans out there...on the third book, dont tell me what happens). Doesn't that just stink. Here's a truth: Even though we are pursuing God, it doesn't mean life gets easier. The same stinky people you work with, are still working. The same temptations are still lurking. The same self confidence issues still press down on you. And before you know it- SMACK! EXPELLIARMUS! You are down. But are you out?

That's where the Protein comes in. Remember its functions: maintain, replace and replinish. This journey in Psalm 119 has shown me that if I follow thru with this commitment to maintain a steady focus on Him, my soul at some point may indeed become weary, Nevertheless I am STRENGHTENED because of His Word.

Sometimes you feel worn out. A long day at the gym can do that to ya. So can a sin that you're struggling with or a fellow christian that is acting as a stumbling block rather than an encouragement. But the second characteristic of Protein is replace. God's desire is to create in each of us a renewed heart, create anew and banish the old. Remember the cross, for those of you struggling at this stage of your Christian 'workout', so to speak. The cross is where all things are created anew and where each of us have victory over our strongholds, whether its a friend sucking the goodness out of you, a girlfriend/boyfriend tempting you, a sin haunting you or a self-centeredness buried within, know that God is a Creator. He wants to replace that junk with an awesome gift of life to the fullest!

Finally, REPLINISH. After a hardcore workout I just crave that Protein shake now that I am in this routine. Why? Because I know that without it, I have just wasted a perfectly great workout and with it, I am able to enjoy the rest of the day with nourishment. God wants to replinish us as well. After a hard day at the office, or whatever it is, God wants your attention. He wants you to RUN hard after His commands and even though you tired, He wants to shower you with His love. How sweet is that?

So whenever I start getting weary, I'll think about Protein. God's Word is the most powerful form of protein anyone can get! After a long day, all I am going to crave is nourishment from my Father!

Expelliarmus Sin, (I know, that was kinda lame, but you get the picture)

Daniel

Daleth and Hei

So....I went birthday shopping for you today ;) Its so much fun. I know I spoil surprises so I won't talk about anything, except for the fact that last year I couldn't buy you a card that said "To My Husband." This year, I can. I loved every minute of it today. Now back to day 4 of Psalm 119. You hit it right on the head when I mentioned that the verses were slightly repetitive. Oh, how you are the wise one my dear. Yes, there is a theme and there is something that the psalmist is wanting us to treasure, to seek, to remember, to speak, to meditate on, to listen to, to learn, and to rejoice over. That is why you are the pastor, my friend, and I am the wife....However, I get a wise word every once in a while ;) So on to Daleth, I am super intrigued by the Hebrew alphabet....I have felt pure joy while studying these past few days.

Daleth means door, which stands in the opening of the house (beth). This author explains it so much better than I could, and I think it is worth noting.

"In man's service of God, the dalet characterizes "shiflut," "lowliness," the consciousness of possessing nothing of one's own. Together with the awareness of one's own power of free choice, one must be aware that He gives you the power to achieve success, and not to think, God forbid, that one's accomplishments are "my power and the strength of my hand." Any achievement in this world, particularly, the fulfillment of God's will, depends upon Divine aid. This is especially true in one's struggle with his evil inclination, whether it be manifest as external passion, stubborn resistance to accepting the yoke of Heaven, or laziness, apathy, and the like."

Whew! Talk about a kick in the fanny! I know that everything I have ever done in my life would not have been possible without the Father. I know this merely because I know how lazy I can be...and that is where it home. For me, that is where satan works his evil and I fall for it every time. The laziness, the "too tired" to function, the comfort of my life, the complacency. It all causes lack of growth. When I am not growing and building a foundation on God's word, I am miserable. Lack of growth and staying in one place equals no growth for the Kingdom and no growth for the Kingdom is exactly what the evil one wants. Lord, get me on my feet again! Train me in your wisdom, show me how to run your course. I choose You, I choose Your path, Your way, Your truth. Build me up by Your word, Father.

Hei- expressed revelation of self in the act of giving oneself to another.

When studying Gimmel, we learned about the rich man running to the poor man to give him charity. The ultimate act of charity is giving when your identity is concealed and shut off from the receiver in order to not embarrass them. Hei symbolizes the actual gift of self to someone else.

The Message gives 119:33-40 in what I would call trendy terms:

God, teach me lessons for living

so I can stay the course.

Give me insight so I can do what you tell me-

my whole life one long, obedient response.

Guide me down the road of your commandments,

I love traveling this freeway!

Give me a bent for your words of wisdom,

and not for piling up loot.

Divert my eyes from the toys and trinkets,

invigorate me on the pilgrim way.

Affirm your promises to me-

promises made to all who fear you.

Deflect the harsh words of my critics-

but what you say is always so good.

See how hungry I am for your counsel;

preserve my life through your righteous ways!

You and no other...

KB

Day 3...Go Rays!

Gimel- derived from the word gemul, which in Hebrew means both the giving of reward and the giving of punishment. Gimel symbolizes a rich man running after a poor man to give him charity.

This implies that we are free to choose between good and evil. At times, I view evil as certain acts and decisions that are illegal and morally wrong on so many levels, and most are. However, we as humans, do evil things that we may not even be consciously aware of. I can think of so many times when I have sat down to a warm meal while a man I passed on the street on my way to that meal was uncertain of where his nourishment would come from. I love verses 17-24 because I can directly relate them to our message tomorrow. In Luke 10:27, Jesus commands us,"Love our neighbors as we love ourselves." In vs. 20 the psalmist writes about being overwhelmed with a desire for God's regulations. God instructs us to love our neighbor, it is His regulation. In Ephesians Paul wrote, "Husbands should love their wives as their own bodies. For no man ever hates his own flesh but nourishes and cherishes it as Christ does the church." This means that we should take care of our neighbors like we take care of ourselves. We should desire to fill their bellies as much as we desire to fill our own. We should desire to relieve their suffering as much as we want our own relieved.

I love how gimel is symbolized, a rich man running after a poor man to help him. Running. His soul is directly affecting his physicality. Running is a true act of freedom and choice. I want to run. Not to things of this world, but for God, for His regulations. I want to run to be of aid to someone. Run to love my neighbor as I love myself. Its the Golden Rule, it sounds so simple, yet it is the one we all struggle with. Getting ourselves out of the way so that God can run our life and we can run for God. Empty me God, so that I can be filled with you.

KB

Stranger on Earth

I love that title. A stranger on earth is what I strive to be. So often I sell out to the ways of this world. Why? Partly boredom, partly because I heed advice of fools, and partly because I am flawed. I am sick of those excuses. I never want to be considered an "eartly guy". Where is the joy in that? For when I pass, I am not taking any of these earthly possesions along with me. I have been fed all my life by the ways of the world trying to tell me what true success is, what real happiness is all about, yada yada. The world has no idea. I have a Savior in Heaven who does though. I want to be a part, a vital part, of His Kingdom. I am tired of being a resident of this world, before I know it I will be gone. I just want this to be a training ground for when I meet my Maker. Alright God, I'm all ears. Speak...

Open my eyes God that I may see wonderful things in your law. vs. 18.

I get in these spiritual ruts and sometimes I feel I am walking blind. God, open my eyes and keep them open so that I might not miss out on something truly great.

I am just so glad that my eyes were open when I met you Katie. Never before was I so close with God when you waltzed into my life in that cute purple shirt and skirt and our trip to, of all places, the Dallas Bull- ha. God had something wonderful lined up for you and me last June and it was each other. Now a year later, I want my eyes to be wide open so we don't miss out on something spectacular. Let us delight in His promises and rest easy and know that He is in control!

God, we pray for tomorrow as we speak to the Senior Class youth group that you will give us peace about challenging this group and give us the tools to bring your message clearly. I am excited about doing ministry with ya tomorrow morning babe. It's really one of my favorite things to do. I love you! Here's to a long and eventful day tomorrow. Social butterflies.

love,
Daniel

Psalm 119 Beth

Our new pastor spoke on Psalm 119: 9-16. He was able to build an 8 point message out of these verses on how to keep your house clean (spiritually speaking). Since he has a PHD I will let him do the talking:
1. Listen
2. Seek
3. Treasure
4. Learn
5. Speak
6. Rejoice
7. Meditate
8. Remember

My take:

Listen to God. Sound easy? So often I get caught up with the daily grind, the constant noise (sometimes literally) and the stuff, that I sraight up forget (intentionally and unintentionally) to listen to God. Lately it seems like a trend. But why? Why do I let these constant distractions consume my day-to-day. Truth time...pause...here goes nothin.
Maybe its simply that I'm scared of what God wants to say. I'm scared to hear that my idea of happiness in life may not be what he considers to be happiness. Or that my 'plan' is so far from what He desires. But, when I drown Him out with a sea of noise with thoughts of more degrees, higher status in the world, or just daily garbage it's easier for me to do what I want. But when has it ever been about me? Really? Who am I? God really doesn't care about my status here on earth. So why should I?
What do I want? Church answer: To further God's Kingdom. My Answer: To do something Bigger than myself, truly impact the lives of a ton of people. I have had this innate desire since I was a teen to do this. But maybe these two answers can come together in some way. I am finally at the point where letting go of my dreams to seek what He has planned for me is a good idea. How novel? God has plans more satisfying than anything I can possibly conjure up on my own down here on earth. I believe that now! And my prayer is that God will use me how He has always desired and more so that I can follow that plan without question! Kate, I know you have been struggling with the same stuff. God is just priming the pump for us. And I know youre feeling the same way. We finally have to say enough of us and all of God! Amen.
I could go thru all 8 of pastor's points but I will save time and just tell you that they are all right on. In order to remain steadfast in my faith and pure at heart I must first and foremost listen to my Father. No excuses. Taking it a practical step further, be an active listener by seeking Him. Treasure Him (soften me up God)! Plug back in and learn His Word. Not only learn His Word but speak it to others (pray for me there that I may have opportunities with my students). Rejoice always for He is good- All the time! Meditate (fill myself up rather than let everything release) and Remember Him.
8 Easy steps for a road to a closer relationship with Christ...Sign Me up.

All my love.

Daniel

A Foggy Day in London Town

Day Two of our Journey and we are full-steam ahead. Like you, I too meditated on Psalm 119 Aleph. I consider it a Good ole Kick-in-the-But(son) to start off the 21 day process. For me verse 7 was challenging.
NIV- I will praise you with an UPRIGHT heart as I learn your righteous laws.
So often, I give God praise, I ask for His help, I sing to Him without this Upright heart. I go into worship feeling filthy from the weekly build up on sin I have committed. When it comes time for corporate prayer, I seem cold and unaffected. That's not what God desires. I want my heart to break for God's lost children, his hurting believers and everything in between. So God, I pray like David in Psalm 51 did. After David's darkest moment, I can see an awesome picture of him finally letting go and letting God. So God, allow me to let go of all the things that are keeping me from a pure and steadfast relationship with you. Create in me a pure heart O God, renew a steadfast spirit within me.
vs. 12 Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, sustain me!
God, that's the answer. I never really focused on that verse ever, until now. Restore the joy of salvation! You laid down your life for mine. While I am still a sinner, you still hung on that tree. God get me fired up about your Kingdom by simply pointing me back to where it all started- the cross.
Kate, I loved your post. Youre right on so many levels.
The fog is indeed upon us. Right now unfortunately we can't see much past our own feet. But maybe that's where God wants us right at this moment. He says He is the lamp to our feet to light our path. Solely depending on Him for every step we take- I don't think there is a better place to be. God will reveal His truth with each step of faith we take and I am pumped about pursuing His cause for our lives together! So let the fog roll and when God clears it, it will be magnificent.

love,

D

Psalm 19- Aleph

Psalm 119 (KJV and NLT)

¹Blessed are the undefiled in the way, who walk in the law of the LORD.

Joyful are people of integrity, who follow the instructions of the Lord.

²Blessed are they that keep his testimonies, and that seek him with the whole heart.

Joyful are those who obey His laws and search for Him with all their hearts.

³They also do no iniquity: they walk in his ways.

They do not compromise with evil, and they walk only in His paths.

⁴Thou hast commanded us to keep thy precepts diligently.

You have charged us to keep your commandments carefully.

⁵O that my ways were directed to keep thy statutes!

Oh that my actions would consistently reflect your decrees!

⁶Then shall I not be ashamed, when I have respect unto all thy commandments.

Then I will not be ashamed when I compare my life with your commands.

⁷I will praise thee with uprightness of heart, when I shall have learned thy righteous judgments.

As I learn your righteous regulations, I will thank you by living as I should.

⁸I will keep thy statutes: O forsake me not utterly.

I will obey your decrees, please do not give up one me!

Top of the morning to you Buns!

I like to look up scripture in multiple translations. Sometimes I feel like a few imperative words were overlooked by scholars and theologians and somehow seeing multiple translations pieces it all together...I don't think it is at all anything to do with their skill, nor do I find my thoughts on this to be of sound judgement...I just want the whole megillah! Hows that for your word of the day??? This probably makes absolutely no sense to you and who am I to question Biblical translations?!? Ha! I'm just thankful for God's word, the people He spoke through and is continuing to speak through. I just like to see all of the different words and synonyms....I love how it breaks itself down.

I really got stuck on the first verse, "Joyful are people of integrity, who follow the instructions of the Lord." In the Message it says, " You're blessed when you stay on course, walking steadily on the road revealed by God." It got me thinking of how sovereign God is. How faithful He is. How He forgives and has no recollection of the times I've decided that my own path was somehow better or more rewarding than His. And each time my path comes to a dead end and I find myself broken and lost, it is obvious that while I was playing with fire and evil He never left me, I was never alone. Ever so gently He sets me back on the best course of all, His course, and NEVERTHELESS, blesses me and I am so undeserving. I also started thinking about the latter part verse 1 in the message, "walking steadily on the road revealed by God." I noticed that it didn't say the road would be revealed all at once. I know that it is figuratively speaking about following His commandments, but stick with me for a moment. I get most off track when I can't see where the road is going. Something always presents itself, clear as day, and I oblige. I feel like we are kind of there right now. We aren't seeing the whole road; the curves and swerves; the rolling hills and green grass dusted with morning dew that shimmers in the sun's first light; the dark nights, some filled with precious pillow talk and others filled with sorrow and pain. We can't see exactly the places it is taking us here on earth or the people we will meet. So I find myself living in the in between. Scared to follow the road, yet certainly not wanting to choose a different one. And let me tell you... that in between stuff stinks and God doesn't like it either....I don't want Him to spit me out for being lukewarm. But I realized that right now, God is wanting me to trust Him. To trust HIM. Not myself, not you, not our parents, our teachers, or siblings, HIM. The reason we can't see through any of the fog is purely because He is asking us to whole heartily trust HIM. I am certain that as we take each step in faith, His path will reveal itself and become clearer and clearer, and when we find ourselves here again, because just know that this will happen again, we will be ready and so willing to close our eyes, take HIS hand, and soar to new heights. His ways are far better and I know I (we) don't want to miss out on serving HIM, merely because of the fear of uncertainty and the lack of faith.

I'm sorry I've been staying up until 2 AM..... it seems that is when I hear the Lord. Lately, I have needed to hear HIM, and as hard as the mornings have been, I am so thankful he is changing this scarred and not so pretty heart of mine.

I love you, forever. Seeing your sweet face is my most favorite part of the day.

<3>

aka. Honey Bunny

My First Blog

Dear Kate,

When thinking of what to write for my first blog I couldn't help but think of you. I love you more each day. You surprise me each day with a glance, or a laugh, a smile or touch. No matter how dreary it seems that day or week, your words of encouragement and optimistic point of view carries me through. Sometimes subtle, and sometimes not so much, you point me in the right direction and make me better. That is why I love you. There is no question in my mind that you have been perfectly created for me and I for you. God definitely helped me "outkick my coverage" (I'll explain that to ya later) when it comes to marrying my hunny bunny!
So why blog? Why not. I am excited to see how God will use this to grow our intimacy with Him and each other. Whether or not people read this is not really up to us. Honestly, I don't think I'm that interesting. But to each its own. Maybe down the road someone who is feeling like they're in the pits or struggling with life can find encouragement thru our conversations or enlightening truths about our Savior.
Nevertheless, here we start on an amazing journey. Which, by the way, don't you just love the word Nevertheless? Nevertheless the bad decisions I have made throughout my life or the sins I have committed, there is a God in Heaven who treasures me. And, nevertheless, I have at some point or another sold myself to the ways of the world, the MTV generation, the billion dollar marketing schemes to steal my precious time away from God here on earth, there is a wonderful and gracious God who has an even more wonderful plan for my life. Nevertheless. Word of the Day!
So I thought it appopriate to start a challenge for me and you. Psalm 119. 22 sections in 21 days can break a habit and build a new one- a love for God's word and a commitment to seek Him each day. Today, join with me and lets begin! I love you and I want to see both of us striving for Him. Thanks for always being you and building me up daily. And lets specifically pray for where and how God can use us for His Kingdom in missions.

all my love and all the best,

Daniel

2:15 on Thursday Morning

You asked me about an hour ago what our objective was going to be for writing this blog. I am not sure I have a direct or clear answer...more like a basket filled with ideas. Who knows if anyone will ever read this, and to be quite honest I am perfectly satisfied if we are the only ones who ever lay eyes on our "ButsonBeat." In the last few months I've taken a back seat to my very own spiritual life. I suppose that I was thinking that maybe I deserve a break or I would amazingly pray without any effort or thought. I've just been flat out lazy. Not only has it affected my attitude and outlook on life, but it has affected our relationship with each other and my actions have not been an encouragement to you and your spiritual walk. And for that, I am deeply sorry. My calloused and cold heart pains my soul in the deepest parts of who I am. My heart isn't where it should be and my head follows suit. You are always so spot-on when you talk about taking the focus off of ourselves and putting it solely on God. After we do that, everything else seems so minor and unimportant. The daily grind of work, the drama of society, negativity, and stress... they don't disappear. We are just so focused on God and His big picture that those annoyances no longer bother us. We rest assured in the fact that He is in control and He has amazing plans for our lives. So this blog for me is a chance to document our lives, kind of like a dear diary, as girly and childish as it sounds. It is also a chance to be super transparent and vulnerable, ridiculous and hilarious, sweet and romantic... you fill in the blank. It can also serve as a sounding board for our dreams, plans, and ideas; a daily dose of what's going on in our hearts; a place to ask and answer thought provoking questions, etc.

I want so desperately to desire God with all that I have. I would love to feel Him near and know that my prayers aren't bouncing off the ceiling like they seem to be doing lately. This is just a chapter and a test and hopefully I will pass this one and not have to re-take it....I think I would title this chapter "Remaining Faithful Even When I Don't Feel Like It." So here is to Chapter 1 of our blog life ;) My prayer is that it brings us closer to Him and closer to each other.

You are my love and the best decision I ever made. I can't imagine life without you and I do, honestly, thank the Father everyday for you.

B

P.S.

My writing "flow" is a reflection of an individual with ADD... just saying ;)